Update!

So the lump in my breast turned out to be a cyst. Whew! I do not have to get it drained unless it becomes painful, so that is also another major relief! However, on Friday night my car did die in the middle of the road. Yeah, not so great! However, the repair ended up being minor so that's good. I just want this car to last me. I'll have it paid off in June 2010 (a big boost to my credit score...Murad and I are obsessed with our credit...we would like to be homeowners in 2010 or at least looking). When it's paid off I'd like to have at for a few more years until I have to buy a new one which will most likely be an SUV since it'll be close to when we'll have kiddos. It just sucks that it's falling apart after my warranty expired! I think they plan it on purpose.

Well, Monday was my 27th birthday. I wasn't looking forward to it because my weekend just sucked. Murad gave me my birthday present early on Saturday because he had already opened it and watched it (it was the 2nd season of the Boondocks on DVD). I was pretty pissed, but I just smiled and said thanks. Then on Monday I came home and he had gotten me a birthday cake (buttercream...my favorite) and an MP3 player. I had no idea he was going to get that for me. He said, "I always hear you saying how you want an MP3 player to use when you work out, so I saved up and got you one." Money has been tight (or non-existent) in our household, so I was very surprised and appreciative of the gift. Murad is so not romantic, but he when he surprises me like that, I just melt.

At work on Monday, I received some cards and my department head bought donuts for everyone in celebration of my big day. I was pretty excited.

I've just been a funk lately. I worry about things I can't control and about things that are not really that big of a deal. It's just in my nature to worry. My mom and grandmother are worriers. Murad hates that trait in me. I really do not have much to worry about. I have a great life with a great fiance, two great dogs, and a great family, but I just worry so much that something is going to threaten that. I worry about money all the time which amuses my mom because, to quote her, "you're better with money than we are. You are definitely better than your brother is with money." Not hard to beat my brother! I just need to lighten up and pat myself on the back. I just don't know how to do that. Any suggestions?

Well, I need to get off my self-hating behavior. Today was a snow day, or should I say ice day. While I was excited to sleep in and have the day off, I'm not excited to work the Friday before spring break. Ehh! Not exciting. However, I did get a lot done today. Graded papers, did some wedding stuff, folded clothes, did some dishes. It was a good day! I also got to watch lots of TV! There are way too many commercials for Everest College, Remington College and Medvance on TV during the day.

On a sad note, my dad is in the hospital. He has pneumonia and after two rounds of medication, they decided to admit him today. I'm hoping they can clear it up and he can go home soon. I hate that my daddy gets so sick so easily. Ever since his brain tumor was removed in 2002, he's battled with back problems, infections, and other ailments. He is such a trooper. He always keeps a positive attitude, but at 62 years old, he can only take so much. Today, he said "I do not want to go to the hospital. I can't stand f*#!ing hospital food!" That's my dad! Keep him in your prayers!