I've been thinking a lot lately about my spiritual gifts. I need to get a lot more involved in church, but I feel like I have no time. Thinking about this made me reexamine my career. This has been the worst year by far. I have work I should be doing right now, but I thought I better clear my head before I begin. I know the fall is always crazy, but seriously IT SUCKS! I'm seriously questioning whether or not I can stay in this profession. I just need some sort of reality check. Someone needs to say one of two things to me:
1. "Ashlea, you're an amazing teacher and you would be silly to leave this rewarding profession. Things WILL get better."
2. "Ashlea, you have so many other talents. Why aren't in another profession that can offer you so much more growth"
The question is, what can I do besides teach? I love teaching, but I do not love all the administrative stuff I have to do. Some of it is mandated by the state of Texas, so I can't not do it. I'm also questioning why I'm going to school to be an administrator. That would be such a stressful job. Even if I was an elementary school principal (which is what I would do), it would be stressful.
I don't know if I will leave the teaching profession, but it just felt good to get that off my chest. I just want things to get better. I want there to be a light at the end of this dark tunnel.
Who I Be
- A J
- My life is a series of unexpected events, adventures and challenges. Marrying a wonderful man whom I met in an airport. Gaining a beautiful stepdaughter. Mother to two Huskies. Teacher of the English Language and Literature and other life skills to approximately 120 kids each year. Daughter to two great parents. Sister to a funny, unpredictable brother. Overworked and underpaid, but I love my life!
5 comments:
Ash- no one knows what's best for you--except you. I can't blame a girl for wanting more when things seem to be down. Remember when we heard the stat in SOE that many teachers don't make it past the 5yr mark? Well, I don't think you're crazy if you want to call it quits--- but at the same time, I can only imagine how awesome of a teacher you are and all of the kids that benefit from having you inspire them daily. I can't tell you if it'll get better (though I hope it does), but I can tell you that the only thing worse than not enjoying life is not enjoying it a day longer than you already have. Wait the storm out and see where your heart is once it calms down. I hope you feel better soon. And I'm so glad that Murad is not hurt. Sorry you two aren't having the best of luck. Just look forward to the fact that you are lucky to have found "the one" and you two will be married in 5 mos. Hugs your way!
Im so sorry! Life is just throwing everything it can at you right now huh? Well all I can say is pray about it and wait for an answer. I will pray for you guys to find some answers and to get some ease in the coming months! Im so glad he's ok, just remind him that everyone gets in accidents, we cause them, we dont cause them, it doesnt make him a failure, it makes him a driver. He is a good person, he is kind and caring, he is a success in every way! I know you are an amazing teacher, I know you would be an amazing administrator. You will be awesome at whatever you do, so you need to figure out what makes you happy and do that so that whatever you do, you are doing with passion! Thats all I know! Miss you!
I am so glad someone finally spoke what I have been feeling! I was almost scared to say it so that I did not sound like a "bad teacher!" I question if I am supposed to be in a school teaching all the time. Especially now that I have a little one on the way, and all the work and stress I have been going through.... Will I have time for him?! So many thoughts to ponder! Know you are not the only one feeling this way! I sure do love you and am not sure what I would do with out you next door. You keep me grounded and motivated! You are AMAZING!!!! ;)Amazing at teaching and amazing at being MY MENTOR!
I'm so sorry to hear that,Ash! I'm sorry it's been such a hard year! I think reexamining your profession is always a healthy thing to do, so that you make sure you are doing what you love in life. But, one thing you should know YOU ARE AN EXCELLENT teacher! I can't tell you how many of my 8th graders last year talked so wonderfully about you! I know that is not the problem though, it's the admin. If only we could get back to the basics of teaching, wouldn't life just be great! I hate that the real joy and purpose of teaching is slowly being taken away by the "Big guys". But, I have an idea...the Danish school system is not at all like the American school system. Maybe you could just move here and teach, stictly for the joy of teaching. :) hehe, just kidding...kind of. :)
I love you, Ash. I'm praying for you and I know God will lead you in the right direction!
you need a mentor in teaching my sweet. i have professor friends that love to teach. they always say how there's bad but the good make it worth it. we need to find your good that makes it all worth it.
you're loved and i think you can do anything. seriously...
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